"Is that for sale? How much?" The customer is pointing to my framed 8 X 10 black and white photo standing on the corner of my desk. "Sorry," I smile, "Paul is not for sale." He says, "I've always wanted an autographed Paul Newman. Everything has a price. Name your price."
I am outraged. "The picture says To Florence Best Wishes. To Florence! I will never sell it. Never! It's mine!"
He leaves me his business card, "In case you change your mind."
This photo has been with me for about 30 years. It shows a younger Paul Newman, in a white shirt open at the collar, jacket slung over his shoulder (I've never seen anyone carry a jacket like that in real life), looking out with squinty eyes, one squintier than the other, pretty smile. Trees in the background.
Aside from the fact that it is my dear darling Paul Newman, I like it on my desk because of the warm feelings it has always generated. Just about everybody comments. Young people, who know his work only from TV respond to him with the same rapture. The photo is greeted nearly the same way by all, men and women - "Oh! Paul Newman!
They do not say, "What a great actor he is." No, they talk about the man himself. How generous to give all the money from his products to charity. How exciting that he's interested in car racing. What a good man he appears to be. And we women especially love that he hadn't upgraded his wife for a younger model every few years.
About five years ago, a shabby man came into the store to sell me one book. It was a "nothing" book, but the man had a sweet smile showing the few teeth he still kept. I took the book, and gave him $5. He saw my Paul Newman. "I was in a movie with him," he tells me, "The Road to Perdition? I was in it." Of course I had seen it. "Oh?" I say politely. "Yeah. I was an extra. Remember the big party? I was a gangster. I was in the party." Now I am interested. "How did you get the job?" He says, "I don't know. Someone comes up to me in the street and says do you want to be in a movie, and sure I want to be in a movie. They tell me where to go and what to do. I got paid too!"
Me, starry eyed, "Did you see Paul Newman?" "Sure, he was there. I liked watching him. He doesn't talk to anybody except what he has to do." The man goes to my chair. He continues, "When he's finished with what he has to do he sits down." And he sat in the chair, folded up a bit, almost slumped, hands loosely in his lap. "This is how he sits. Doesn't talk to anyone. Doesn't look up." He continues, "And when they call him..." and now he sits erect, stands up with energy and takes a few steps. "See, now he's ready."
"Wow", I say to this insight. "What concentration. What focus." The man looks at me. "Maybe he was just tired."
Maybe he was. But he was electric. He was lovely. It was a punch in the belly when I heard he had died. Rest in peace, dear man.
---Florence
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